Broken Heart...

You said we are not for each other... I knew it from the beginning... I asked myself what attracted you to me... It's not the tears which felt that night... I ask myself was that a mask you are hiding inside... I was there for you...
You said you are not crying... I BELIEVED YOU... that night... you made a pain in my heart... the fear of love wined that night... I FELT IN LOVE AGAIN... the fear of love still follows me... I can't do it any further... you are not here any more... I am afraid to lose you completely... and forget you with bad memories... to burn you with that feeling... is it possible you to felt so down?...
But I am afraid will I be honest to anyone that muck as I was with you... am I love again, will my heart be broken?... You are the one who sent me to the grave of dad souls, you found new victim... I saw it all from aside... I trusted you like that night... that famous night which in my thoughts will never fade away... I am crying like you now...
My heart make pain because I can't go further... can't go without you.... without your sweet words indicated to me.... I am afraid to forget you.... I am afraid that am already forgetting you... I am afraid that I forgot you... That is the sweetest lies which comfort me when you are not here and when I am afraid that I am loosing you again.

I miss you all day long

I visit your grave every day... to talk to you... people say you can't hear me because you are gone... and I say: "Maybe you people don't find him in your eyes, but he is still here in mine... " Because you are still in my heart and always will be...
I cry when I think about you... People ask me why... I just tell them what I feel about you, that I love you... that I miss you so much... but again people say there is no reason to love you because you are not here.... you are gone and will never go back... and I agree...
You are gone but you will never be forgotten and one day we will meet each other.... I promise... I pray God every night, asking to guard you... and talk to Him about our meeting.... I want to kill myself just to see you again... in paradise... and then think you will not like it... I try to be happy but I can't after I know I will never hear your voice... I always thought I can live without you... but it seems that I can't...
I never thought you will leave me... my mum says you never leave me, God needed an angel... I asked God: "May I be the next angel? " just to be with you... but He never answer me... Also I ask to God: "Why, why He took you away from me? " and hurt me so... I don't believe that anyone knows how much I need you and how much it hurts... I hate the fact you are not here... I want to see you at least once more, for the last time... so that I can say good bye...
Nobody understand me any more... nobody understand that I will love you forever, I never thought that something like this may happen... nobody does.... If could I, if could I at least turn back the good time with you... but all is gone... everything changed... just to think will make me cry... to a long crying... but mum says not to cry... because you are watching me and you don't want it... I say I am sorry but everything I can do, is crying... She says just remember nice moments... and I say I can't do it without you... because we were always remembering together... so she say:"Why don't you tell me the memories?"... and I say I will love to tell you... she say I can tell you always because you are always near me... that you could never let me alone because you love me too much...

From the true story ... :-(